A Shareable Journal in a Private Language
期望和現實的差距只能用強大的愛來填滿。
過去的這幾週，我有成千上萬個理由，心裡有太多自己其實不必要的正義，這個對那個不對，這個人做這種事說這種話實在很遜，我心裡有成堆的抱怨，什麼事情都要經過心裡面那個是非對錯的小天秤，一旦傾斜了，就很不暢快。
其實我所缺乏的也是最根本的，我需要的不過是大聲讚美，大聲唱詩歌。被充滿的時候，天秤也失靈了，我甚至不冷了，我看見的只是每個人的喜樂洋溢的笑臉。謝謝小白菜讓我了解到這一點，我自以為很站得住腳的那些解釋自己暴躁的理由，例如荷爾蒙和女人週期，其實真的很薄弱，很淺。
我在你身上看見了那種不受拘束，不怕其他人怎麼想的自由。放手了豁出去了，就不被侷限了。「有什麼不敢的」不一直是你的我的style嗎。道理與知識的複誦不差我一個，但真正的分享應該是由心出發。
自由了的感覺真好，與人和好的感覺真好，心裡的小天秤不見了感覺真好。老舊都除去了，我又被更新了。All I need to do is to sing to God at the top of my lungs, and call the songs of the loudest praise.
I am learning the matter of taking care of people.
Both Emma and I agree that when we first entered into college we weren’t that lucky as those freshmen who now have many people welcoming them. We were the kids that nobody wants. However, this emphasized how much Peggy and Tina have taken care of us; we were just foreigners who did’t speak English, we weren’t fun to hang out with, and we weren’t beautiful at all. However, as Luke 14:12-14 says, “And [Jesus] said also to the one who had invited Him, when you make a morning meal or a dinner, do not call your friends or your brothers or your relatives or rich neighbors, lest they also invite you in return and it becomes a repayment to you. But when you give a reception, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed, because they do not have anything with which to repay you; for it will be repaid to you in the resurrection of the righteous.” That is what they truly did to me. They saw me when I was nobody; they still took care of me when I can do nothing for them; they loved me when I was the least but it was the time I needed it the most.
I don’t even know if I can do this to others as much as they did it to me. However, I am learning the same way to pour out without any return expected, for I do all these for God. John 21:15, “… and [Peter] said to Him, Yes, Lord, You know that I love You. [Jesus] said to him, Feed My lambs, … Shepherd My sheep.” I do all I can do, to pay it forward, to pass on their care, and to take care of God’s people. I believe it is very sweet to do so. I put few of them on my heart now and I pray for them. Even though we do not ask for repayment in a visible form, for all these care and support are actually mutual; you receive when you give, you are sustained when you give support.
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